relationships.......

i have a lot of friends and in that i am blessed....i have to say im pretty lucky in life cos the stars just seem to have aligned and basically got me to where i am today...Content.i went thru a lot of shit ,a lot of shit and im amazed that i managed to pull out of it...i never realised how strong i was until i saw my friends struggle to let go of relationships that they know is just so wrong on just so many levels.when u love for four whole years with all that you are,and when he shatters all the dreams that u had built for the two of you,there is little else that u can hold on to,little that u can cling to ,little that u can grasp at,little that u can make sense of,because u feel as if the life force has been sucked out of you.I dont really recollect a lot of what happened in the next two or three months after we broke up...i saw the world through my tears,i felt the world only through my pain,i spoke out in between my sobs,i breathed in between trying to calm and repair my shattered heart...i felt nothing ,saw nothing,heard nothing , only pain, aching pain,pain that i wanted to be free of but thought i never could.....life is hard but not so hard that we cant get through it.....and slowly but surely i did.i began to heal and helping me along was the man who would become my husband,the man that i love more than anything else in the world ,the man who loves me so unselfishly,so unabashedly, so truly...i am truly blessed....but more importantly is the realisation that i am strong...stronger than yesterday....and i just hope my friends would also pull out this strength of theirs and let go ...

when the mind is a total blank

i am thinking bout what i want to blog about and i realise that there is no specific thing in my mind as of now...im drawing  a  blank-a total blank.its not like im not thinkin of anything but there are just too many things  goin on  my mind rite now and  its hard to concentrate on just one thing.okay then lets c whats there in my mind right now.I am thinking about what to cook for lunch...and the fact that i dont wanna cook but i have to cos the cook sucks big time!i am also thinking bout how much the noise of the carpenters sawing and the masons banging away is really bugging me...yes,the house in under renovation..i am also wishing that my husband comes back from the office right now cos there is a lizard in the bedroom i m so scared of them its not even funny...i am also trying to remember whether i watched E! news last night n if i havent then i should be watchn the reruns now...gotta get my daily dose of celeb drama!i am thinkin why we have to go pee evry 2 hours or so ....it gets to me sometimes....i am also thinkin bout the fact that i need to lose weight if i want to fit into all the clothes that i want to wear but im kinda giving up before even starting ...i am also thinking about my facebook status which i need to be updating cos i said i would post an update every hour for today and thats exactly what i intend on doing.....so toodle doo......signing off for now....

sleepless in seattle

I watched Sleepless in Seattle for the first time today !i have to say that Annie (Meg Ryan)was very brave and though i applaud her ,i dont think i would ever have had the courage to do what she did.she walked out of a stable relationship and jumped into the unknown.Ever so often we 'settle' for a lot of things in life becos we r not brave enough to venture out....we are too scared to take risks.we want to stick with the familiar,the tried and tested methods because we know what to expect.i think that the movie works not only because its a well scripted love story but because it is a fairytale.we women have so many romantic notions in our head and even if the majority of us falter on the steps of the unknown ,we want to believe that there are a few women out there brave enough to answer that call.And Annie is one of those.... all of us see in her a tiny bit of ourselves (though its well hidden) and thats why i could relate with her.today i am a happily married woman but i do look back and harbor regrets for a lot of things that i wish i could have done but was never brave enough to do.

badminton....yes ,the game

Badminton is a game and to me it was meant to be a form of exercise...but it has become much more than just a game.Badminton now means an hour of physical and mental release from a facebook- induced comatose state.it has become an hour -the only hour-when i go outside and breathe in fresh god-given air!There is a huge tree in our compound and at exactly 5 pm more than a 100 birds come back to their nests n their little ones after a hard days work and they start chirping all in unison drowning out any kind of meaningful or otherwise conversation that my cousin n i are trying to have.i had forgotten what a birds chirp sounded like because they have all been shot down and eaten back home.But i digress...let me get back to badminton and its therapeutic influence on me..i really do feel lighter even though i may not have lost any weight at all!i perspire and then i drink a lot of water which means i am takin my daily intake of water(which i never would have d one otherwise)...and then its off to the shower after which in all my freshness its back to the world of virtual farming,a topic which i shall touch upon in another blog.!

shoes!

I will write on a new topic every single time...at least i will try to..i love shoes...period!i have always been fascinated by shoes in all colors,shapes,and designs.i love the feeling that a stiletto has the power to give-instant confidence!i love the way boots have the ability to instantly perk up ur outfit from drab to fab ,i love how wedges and espadrilles etc etc bring summer cheer and signifies fun,flirty n feminine...BUT i am not a fan of sneakers or ballerinas...i dont mind them but i would never lose sleep over them...loafers i would love to own a few but the ones that i like are wayyyy beyond my budget n if i saved money for one whole year then maybe i cud afford one!!i fail to understand why a lot of women(especially indian women)spend wads of money on clothes n accessories n yet wear the ugliest looking n might i add cheap shoes.my ultimate desire is to own a pair of Loubotins to wear with my skinny jeans,a pair each  of Jimmy Choos n Zanottis n Manolo Blahniks to wear on night outs,a a pair or two of Tods loafers for the day,and a pair of Ugg boots for whatever life may hand out to me!

introduction!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

life as we know it ....tats the title of my blog...cos i jus wanna blog bout my life and the nitty gritty insignificant details that accompany it....i hv always been interested in writing but a lot of times inspiration deserted me.but a friend of mine started blogging from today n i was inspired by her .....so here i am....